"on the road in the rain and snow"

"lord don't give me no Buick"

memories

wishes

wants

the enunexplained

"so many obstacles to true happiness"

what a crock that is. How about some truth plain and straight?

what i want this month?

To matter. To be visible to the universe. To embrace the unexpected person of my companion. So much more than i could have imagined. i sure as hell wasn't imagining me like this. Typos, unusual usage and all.. .. Reading blogs for the last couple of days is perspective on my overall contribution to society. Ranking among the really cerebral and funny writers and illustrators out here in space? Annoying my companion to some extent for his muse-like qualities is unfortunate.

If anything, the dark and the angst tend to overweigh the cleverness if not in me, then most certainly in the writing that passes for cutting edge or relevant.

My one claim to fame is discovering a spiritual integrity(previously lacking?) and facing the consequencs of that awareness in past sowing and reaping, in future seeds, in the present? I am fully in the moment, knowing that without the truth, i am one more clever pen. M. and i spoke of integrity. really what is left if that is not there? Gave me pause to think of how i wish to be seen by my loved ones as i bump and stumble through this, beginning to matter.. .. .. again

not "*i* and i alone know what truth really is. like a terminal conspiracy... not that....

But this: Truth is know-able. Not for the priests or the elite or the supersmart or tenderly sensitive.

Truth came alive and forever after, truth became a quantifiable substantive entity with every human nerve intact. Know-able by the rookie and the rank. The disenchanted, the less-than-whole. Accessible with a bow and a hug. All attributes relate, all emotion matters.

After all, what is the most human drive after sex? TO matter. TO love. To matter so much to someone that life is never the same. Usually an unspoken wish. How many men and women, frail and battered; will ever have that grace? To know someone even as we are known.

Point being, hello and good bye alley!!!

That truth is a person, a feeling, a judgement of a rightness that is still and quiet in voice but knows us and wishes to be known.

So the more i open to that and respond, the more i have to offer. Offer the public a glimpse and a reminder that real hope is alive and well. Offer those who are on this truth journey to have the courage to persevere. Illuminate the dusty corners of loves soul "My heart belongs to me." In the process be full, be open. the most difficult of all. stay the course.

Luke 6:38
Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

another chance to put this into practice? i am truly grateful. A collar which does not chafe. a yoke which one can live with, but constant, be known.

playlist: MARC COHN. this one has found the truth. "Surely He hears less conventional prayers."