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Sr. Member Posts: 396 scottish mailbear seeks honey Re: Back Deck Chat II « Reply #235 on: Today at 06:13:19 am » Quote Modify so good to check in here. really haveing a difficult week. loves. mostly. mymichael and i are not going to make it. from the fantasy land to real life. i m not sure if that is because of his oddities. (once a captain of your own boat, always a captain!) or my need to anchor somewhere and being willing to give up my 'rules' to do so., yeah, i am looking to be happy with my own routine. just been a beastly lonesome time. i wasn't expecting this. i was expecting closure. just not on the man i love like he is my own skin. Music is helping. I heard that it is frequent. the Significant Other who helps you through a difficult time, death, divorce, etc. is a transitory person. any stories? or am i the only one not married here now. something else i never wanted. to be unmarried again. but ya gotta have a man you can live with i guess. just rambling here. the good news is that Liam is moving back in this week, spring break. i hope we will be good for each other. i am not so confident these days about my charm, lol. feel pretty much like crap most of the time. tired of living inpain. the worst part is that i can take care of other people just fine, but not me.. scared to death and all the tough redhead jokes aren't working. {{bare}}{Ag}} {{chatters}}     Report Spam Logged All I want is one good man. A friend told me "Being the person that you are will bring you the person that you are supposed to be with. You do not want too much, never give up hope. "the one" will indeed find you. Do not lower your standards. You deserve to have what you want. CL ad

mrgoodwrench1951 Administrator Hero Member Posts: 1673 Re: Back Deck Chat II « Reply #236 on: Today at 06:25:43 am » Quote ((liz)) sorry about the tough time your're going through. I did not realize how serious things had gotten with you and the new guy. It's not easy being along and not easy being with someone new. I don't know what his oddities are but my other boss used to say that most of us are odd in one way or another. But if it's not meant to be, there is not much one can do. I've been married so long but prior to marriage had my heart broken. Love, marriage, being alone, none is easy at times. But Liam is moving back so that will be good (I hope). Regarding this time of year and tornadoes, it's not easy. The last few days we've had issues and they scare me but luckily nothing has come our way.     Report Spam Logged

misslizzy Sr. Member Posts: 396 scottish mailbear seeks honey Re: Back Deck Chat II « Reply #237 on: Today at 06:42:57 am » Quote Modify Thanks Annie! goodmorning! somedays i wake up and i still can't believe i am divorced. that i have no home, no family. no fucking purpose. almost not worth it. at least the asshole i was married to was predictable. and michael and i have been together a year in april. it is just unraveling and i am not doing anything one way or the other. he is very self contained. commercial fishermen, former alaskan, etc. his house is set up like his boat. and yeah i know more about what makes him an asshole after 9 months than i ever figured out about my husband, but it doesn't lessen the whole impact... i havent' brought it here really because i have had a 'handle' on it. there is alot of insecurity in my life right now. the apartment feel so transitional. not home. it probably wont' be. i am a financial wreck. not a nice thing to contemplate for my twilight years. i will never live down the credit problems from the last 10 years. i LIKE respectable. I lived my life for RESPECTABLE. and now the barefaced ass ex tells me he is reneging on bills that we had split up because he is panicking about the housepayment. and of course michael has had money his whole life. bought his first house when he was 18 and he just has no fucking sympathy at all.. i don not want to make my youngest my lifeline. not fair to him. in fact. i see two men in my life recently. michael is one of them. men over 45 whose mothers are their sole emotional support. best friends and confidants. and they wonder why they do not have successful marriages? my friend ron, his mom died two years ago, he is 54 now. and still lost without her. and he went through 4 marriages. so i have avoided doing that to my sons thus far. lucas came close, but we have done the young adult separating thing pretty good. i have no idea what it is like for girls and moms.. i knwo several women, some here. whose family is their lifeline, girls especially. i think those of us with boys have to try really harder.. lol