SOBERING~~

L.: Thanks for the grace luve. So good to bury my nose in your skin. The owie is all better. (you, me, the devil makes three~ A sweet menage ^atrois)
M.: are you, were you, how can you be bored...LOL
pssst...as long as the devil has long legs all the way to her pussy and flaming red hair.
L.: I can see your hands. Good hands and a deep voice. Who DO you think that is? Yes you

reflections on family and the extra entry for June you knew was coming!

Hey Lady,
So I'm an impromptu Grandfather and Father

What is my relationship the "the Family"
I'm stuck in Silverdale, can you pickup __- from her friends?
I need gas money
__- is stealing my makeup, staying up all night texting friends after sneeking my phone, wearing "my" clothes!!!!
Can you help me with my homework, funny when I don't know it __- does and and helps too! Ha!
Grandpa can you help me with my homework
If I make the patato salad can we have a BBQ tonight?
Every year I take __- Christmas shopping so she can buy some nice gifts to give
They watch the house and animals when I'm away for the weekend
The other day J. says "your older and know more so I'm asking for some guidance here"
The color you picked sucks, "we" need to pick out a more manly color for you bachlor pad(TRUST HER ON THIS!!)
When it snowed I took out the 4 wheeler and got baby formula and diapers
Drove them to Seattle in the Snow and ice so they could be with the family for Christmas

Yes I'd say we're "Family"
I'm happy to have one
Thanks for listening

i have to quote you:
"Just want to say thanks for valuing my opinion. Ego boost! :) I feel useful! Someone actually thinks I can provide useful information"

you probably don't know how many people value your opinion. i was very glad to have a clear eyed, balanced person like you assessing and opining, lol. your friend is lucky to have you participate.
i miss relying on my hubby to take a second look at things. i knew his bias-es so i could tell if he was on the money. we agreed on many things so i like to think i provided him good counsel too. but i suck people's brains dry that are over me in some capacity. my pastor, my counselor. once i learned that everything i knew was right was ACTUALLY wrong i think the teachable moment became a reality. what us jesus lovers like to call a "teachable spirit ".

i was very hard of hearing for many years. and probably why i am not farther along the road. but now when i listen and brace for the impact of new truth and knowledge becoming application, it seems i see the reward clearer, or the outcomes are more tangibles. for so .l\long it was like swimming against the current of my past and proclivities, spawning nothing worth keeping.

i was able to tell lucas last night that where he is at just turned 24 with an 18 month old daughter and a broken relationship with the mother?
HIS place right now is a huge improvement over my generation. me at 25 with a small baby and no skills and no relaiionships and no future and no education. only fear.. told him he was a credit to his generation and that mistakes are made so that men are made from the fallout.. keep trying. disengage from the woman, do not harden your heart against your daughter. it wont make leaving her any easier. Tomania's decision to stay here instead of working with the diving employment of her 'ex' is torturing both of them. at least they love their kid with all their hearts. they should de-polarize and yet support. lucas is trying.
so yeah. time with him wound so tight>? really trying. i think i stressed him out more. he can't adjust our mom-son-friend thing right now either. post marriage mom is being resisted by all the boys. although liam is more tolerant even though he lives with me.

i degress. nice alley. have a good time finding your way back. **waves**

i do not take things personally, but i tend to have puns at the tip of my tongue and bookish references handly. i do not ever poke fun at people, like 'fat ass' or 'loser' or stuff like that. ty

i am watching my 16 year old live through what i said i would never put my kids through. emphasis mine. now with the ex's situation, it hasn't changed his choice or there would be ramifications... he is an odd young man. his word is his word. he is not wound up right, lol. love him to death. have a shrine to him here in m y bedroom wall. rocks candles pictures gradeschool art. all that is left of my boy.

i think i stopped believing in that everybody gets second chances. after my ex ran me through about 20 second chances. gets old.
so no., i do not tolerate my mistakes well any more. more apt to say fuck it. .

. . you see, i operate on all channels some are all nighters too, !