All my defenses down in other words.

His smell is what really turns me on. My face buried in his crotch, my hands on his thighs or small of his back. OH, when he hummed on me? all over, i felt my gspot move against his finger and then his tongue, such good pressure, in the channels of my clit, then squishing it flat from top of the hood. Damn. who knew being a woman is such fun**grins**

i felt the rollercoaster hang on top for a second and then down into waves and bumps. Not real pronounced, but hte feeling was there. i relaxed against his mouth and hand and in another couple of minutes there it was again. very cool. very needed.

He loved me thoroughly and then i actually slept for three hours. His bed is not for women. it is his bed. funny that. . .

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huhh, thinking that it didn't take long for my natural ways of expressing myself to rebound from the last  5-6 years. Mannerisms and dress. Deeper ingrained repsonses, i love to ride on top in bed.

"According to several major surveys, only 25 percent of women always climax during sex with a partner. The rest of us either hit — or miss — depending on the night, or never orgasm during intercourse at all. Compared to the male version (more than 90 percent of men get their cookies 100 percent of the time), the female "O" is a fleeting phenomenon. The question is: Why? What the hell was Mother Nature thinking?" ~ womenshealthmag.com

 More stuff that is 'womens work'? grrrr... patently unfair!!!
Although, experiencing two vag'l orgasms and two clitoral sensory tantra style explosions in the last month alone? all fabulous touching, skin, talk and breathing exploring overload? makes me even more curious as to what is going on here. E

gals, some intro thought. **I** want, i know you want, but none of want to bare our primal sensuality even a bit?
How long does it take with a new partner to open up and grab the ceiling?
Is it possible with a first time or one-time encounter?
Is 'getting fucked' or being objectified the turnon?
Or is it easier with our own? or by ourselves?



Yet, night time comforts of fingers or toys, sleeping alone. stimulating mind for body's sake. A pleasure button of sorts. Not even the same kind of finish, gasping and panting, talking low and dirty to yourself, enjoying flesh for the sake of sensation and touching, visual. That is MY body doing and feeling that. DO NOT STOP, plzplzplplzplzplzplzplz.

those ideas and images flood me, lube me, give me the confidence to look my lover in the eye and initiate the responding mode. Guide me, let me explore your sensations. The dark dank feelings are as much "ME/YOU" as the shaking with laughter feelings. The ones that i know in private we share. 

Although, responding and being the receiver-giver during intimacy, the "usual" things that get me high when i am solo don't work. Because i am in the present, participating, anticipating. Just as i recognize his thought~heart behind the motion~action, it changes. pain~pleasure, impulse~stimulation.

So getting there becomes all the fun. peaking at at the top and getting my body used to this partner, his breathing, his pattern even as he studies my responses and tailors the visual and emotional to arouse me deeply. serves its own purpose and l'uomo amante is great at design. a beautiful example of passion and consideration in intimacy. all my spots rubbed, so shut up and kiss me!!

This is to some degree, me... and one very disciplined lover! the lesbian part is in there only to clarify what follows, OK? **rolls eyes**

One liberating thing about the lesbian world, is that the "virtue-worrying" element drops completely out. It's very relaxing to be a fallen woman, whether by dent of one's queerness, kink, or commercial enterprise.
But back to the men:  I have a vibe— nothing I can prove, just anecdotal evidence— that even though "premature ejaculators" (god, I hate that term) get a lot of press, there are just as many men who are the other end of the spectrum.
This kind of man will control, delay, and push back their orgasm so that it becomes difficult for anyone to bring them off other than themselves— with their own hands, fantasies, and timing. In that sense, they share something with women who also can't just "give it up" to her ardent lover.~ susie bright

What used to pass for passion? is a whole different gone deal. GONE DEAL. in case anyone missed that.

So anything you read below this line __ means only what you visualize it to be. Hot? not hot? not a magazine survey either. ordinary women. WE have orgasms with hetero partners, with each other, with ourselves, but do we like it strange and hot and solo?  any really into oral stranger sex? lots of 'traingrope' stuff and surprisingly not a lot of bondage, tying, restraints.

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So i get this whole outrageious craigslist thing going with the man who is going to save uneaten cunt forgoing without. He describes himself as 'kind' and 'patient' and loves to give a woman an oral orgasm nsa. I engaged him in convo and the second email, i took his ad apart with a dull butterknife:

"See, even given your detached POV, there is a rub; Stranger sex in all forms, including strictly oral MF MD consensual, is not usually a woman' s fantasy.
Stranger sex can be hot, but it has no depth to the tone. Ragged and forceful encounters, d/s.
"Pleasing" implies object of sexual appetite, whose?

see, those bite marks had a significance.  My 'next&always' has a way of causing orgasms that depend on how well i listen and play. It is play, it is passion. He rocks my world, so i was curious... ...  no two orgasms are alike, yes?"

Set him off. He pretended to be outraged that someone would draw him out and then tell him he had no clue no character.  I tried to keep it healthy debate, but he felt tricked and so all the rules for courtesy did not apply. unfortunately for him. 

orgasms? none, one or twenty,  it all comes from a place this person had not inhabited. i read 'em the "do no harm first" chapter and verse.  He did not like that i was,as he put it, "someone who comes acros as "what can you do for me?"" HELLO? my orgasm IS about me? Your personal is about what you can do for the woman, so why are you offended ? Or is this about you; more you, satisfying your fantasy?" 

He went away mad, the little troller, and i laid down with a mirror and had a beautiful orgasm.. almost started talking, lol.. .. .. ..

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tie me ~ and restrain my nipples ~ to me is the hottest way to tingling puffy oh yeah.. .. more pressure.. .. "the rougher the better", sheesh, when he said that to me, i thought, "I finally found my twin" Him spanking my pussy, even as he urges me to lift my ass and bring my holes right to his hungry velvet tongue, compassionate fingers, but insistent, commanding. It determines how  i move to gather more of his touch up inside of me. any way he chooses, oh... he leaves me aching sometimes.

then i will him, WILL him to tug at my nipples while my tied wrists rest on my mound and i rub my clit channels evenly but hard. once the natural juices aren't being brought up with finger stim, then oil to stay lubricated. oooh and it is smooth, smooth. the promise of oiling. already my ring tightens with the pleasure thought. so easy to cum, involuntary spaaaaaaaasm, ahhh - cunt - yes. mine, so get me flying then ride my ass until i start talking. you will know. nasty sexy talkin', not nice, not a hag. witchey fuckin'.

How about this concept? Is it better if someone is watching?

I like to Watch! - I've always been a voyeur by nature and would love to watch a couple (male/female or female/female) have sex. Public or private locations are fine with me.  ME: Clean, respectful, fun and hoping you reply! Not necessarily looking to join in (ok if I masturbate while I watch?) but can join if asked. (until you cross their 'want'? then the real person comes through?)

Stranger sex is fine, sometimes really super heated, but an orgasm for me? Not unless there is fullbore stims going!
the end result is the warning to all men who wish to save us for ourselves, " I have minions and i am not afraid to use 'em!"

ok, there is more coming. snippets of descriptions. the original ass fucker? Marlon Brando oh, soooo hot..last Tango. so far we have ass, boobs, clits, more clits,  spanking, nakedness in general. all good!

actually date: September 5th at 9:30 pm-midnight: playlist: Butterfield Blues band

Entry for September 10th:

interesting fantasy.

 Straddle my face and grind your pussy to your hearts content - m4w

I want you to squat over me, straddle my face and grind and rub your pussy into my mouth until you make yourself cum like never before! Yes, I am serious. My face is yours, use it in the manner that YOU want and need to get off.

Its a major turn on for me to see, taste and feel a woman let herself go and ride my face as she only wished she could do if she wasn't shy about what her lover thought. Well, that's what I want you to do; use my face as you only wished you could with your prior lovers.

There's no need for inhibitions, I want you to take what you want and make yourself come in any manner that gets you off. Want it slow and soft? Hard and fast? You set the pace and pressure, I'll provide the soft lips and probing tongue! If there's one thing I've learned about women, its that each one has their own unique criteria for getting off. (**rolleye**

You know what you need best, so use my face as you want and get off in the most mind blowing orgasm you've ever given yourself. It's an incredible turn on to me to watch a lady lose it and become the raw, primal sexual being she is capable of being. I want to taste and feel you rubbing and grinding your pussy into my hungry mouth, smearing your juices all over my face as you get off again and again. The soft warmth of your thighs pressed against my face, the taste of your juices, your repeated cries of ecstasy. That is what I want - don't you?

like i said, interesting proposition. Again. 

More on the warm part: Try it:

The clitoral foreskin responds to light touching by giving its owner warm feelings of sexual pleasure.

**grins** like him? rougher than a lady should?

watch me watch you?