last Wednesday of August

Too much change. Just get a grip on the personal life thing and then work does a 180. Did get an angel sent to me. in the form of a gal on my route. "You have to be able to let your life change in an instant, everything upside down and ass over teakettle, without missing a beat". This from a woman who has had more tragedy and more love in 20 years than most people experience in two lifetimes. Needed the perspective.

And mylion assured me that i had the six months i needed from him to let these things take their pace. Wheeewww...

HOw to examine this process to relate it to t hose who have gone before. Merciless but accurate? Not wrapped in former ways of relating. Stop talking and start listening. We all learn obedience in the things we suffer. I wouldn't trade these last 8 years for anything, for i am complete now.

My friend said, "Yes, you may have been given permission to leave at that time (see lifeways), but there was no sense of emergency or urgency to the presence of the Spirit. He was preparing you and He needed you to go through the endurance, imo". What a blessed insight. Removed all the guilt like pffffft, gone! As long as it wasn't wasted time. that would be grievous.

The miracle of YOU BABE? was for me all along, but being ready to receive? took a couple of years. To think we lived down th e block from them for those years. damn.

ON THE HOME FRONT

Got the teens their school stuff. Not shoes or backpacks, but registered one for high school (i ain't that old!!!) and the other one in Meany Middle School unless Washington MS has room for him in the ASSIST program. He will live with brother until it is time to bring him to another home, hopefull with me. After spending the day with him, though, he is still carrying the home stuff with his heart and is pretty polarized to me.. He has a sensitive spirit still though, so that is all good.

AND MY GRANDDAUGHTER IS CRAWLING!!! AT NOT QUITE 7 MONTHS!!!! WOOT!! TA-YA!! and pulling herself up. L. is getting to be quite the dom male, so that is good. Making a man's decisions and correcting T. YES!@that !

adn the nicest thing that anyone said to me this week? M. said, "You really are a sentimental woman!"

ahhmm, yes, i am, baby.